i had promised to fill my blog with entertainment. unfortunately... ... i am too tired :(( 16thnov09mon stayed at home and rottttt omg. dam nice can. :)) 17nov09tue went out with jx, ly, jam :)) mrt was scarey. i realli think i have affinity with mad people. saw one on mrt today. i can see one when taking bus, lrt, and now, mrt. the guy was staring at people, smiling to them. ly saw him first. followed by jaime. then me. he kept staring, smiling at the auntie near him. then the auntie commented "xia si ren, xia si ren" and moved closer to us. it was enuff to kept me laughing throughout the whole journey :p then the scariest part was that he followed the auntie when auntie moved to other side. haha went orchard. i bought my mask. finally. and lip gloss. shant comment much on it. i could just say fuck u to the sales lady.
went home then. 18nov09thurs work was okay. i wun say i like it cause it was quite tiring. my shoulders ache from sitting -,- but i dun dislike it either. the people there were nice. :)) and i just hoped i wun make any more mistakes. anyway anyway anyway i just want to say one thing to some fuckers. JUST KEEP UR EYES TO YOURSELF. if u find it difficult then do something about it. people keep staring. like wth???!! one old man looked at me, ly, jam and started to shake his head. wad else? our dressing? make sense. HELLO OUR SHORTS IS LIKE LONGER THAN FBTS!!! wake up lah. stop sleeping -,- anyway. BAD ROMANCE BY LADY GAGA IS LIKE OMG. MY CURRENT LOVE. :))
5:30 AM
Saturday, November 14, 2009
12th november09thurs went kbox wid dawn. seriously, my singing sux lol. use alot fake voice. eeeeeee dno why aso bought earring, present for isabel and dawn. 13th november09fri many things happened today. went salon in the morning to get my hair done. shun bian bang my fringe :P after that went home. ate and rested went wid mum to mediacorp dam far. lol. but okay lah straight bus. only problem is i dno where to stop :P after that went hougang mall. i hate it when pl lites saw u, recognised u, and then stared at u. my mummy bought eyeshadow... ... though i dn like the stuff there. blah blah. went home. i found a job and got a prom dress. :)))))) left a stupid mask -,- i got heels already, so to save money, im wearing that. starting work next week. :(( awwwww but moneyyyy :)))) 14th november09sat last minute then decided to go isabel's house since jesslyn also going and leaving early i cant stay too late later mummy worried :(( many things happen before that forget to bring isabel's present, so i went home to take -,- after that walk halfway slipper spoil, luckily still near home went home again to change -,- made jesslyn wait for dno how long. sorry. met her in bus 74 took bus there... aso dno where to stop -,- blah blah reached there finally. :)))))) ate, watch pi li MIT. isabel gave me danson poster. :)) talk laugh crap. isabel spat out her meat when i said i want to go playground (got swing!!!) was dam scared she choked then stephanie, sherilyn, cherlyn, chara, xinyan came. talk watched crap. prepare went down bbq then wenshi came followed by eileen prepare. went down the small pool wid clothes on lol went playground. played the swing and stuff then start the charcoal. wahhh took dno how long to start the fire. i fan until pekcek. then when the fire started, it start to rain so we start to bbq in the rain. HAHA dam nice. especially when it is like quite dark. and people holding umbrella surround the bbq area. but the smoke keep going into my eyes. i started to teared blah blah ate and talk and took group photo took bus and went home. i left my jacket in isabel's house :(( haixxxxx 15th november09sun. stayed home today. no way i am gna go out luh i am already going out on next tue, wed, thur, fri, sat, sun. :(( hopefully i am able to rest on monday. haha
10:41 PM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
its been a long long time :)) Os over.... screwwwwwwww haaaa whatever. :)) i am happy girl now. and i am excited to see the new me. :)) surprises :)) ohhh mama i am missing out a lot. i nida take care of myself reason why i looked depress sometimes is ... BECAUSE I AM NOT FEELING WELL haha so i nida take note of my health. especially gastric. :(( i am still crazy over angela zhang, rachel liang. :)) awaiting for more new album to come. anyway. i am gna miss 3B1 :)) sec 3 and 4 life is the best i must say. i am gna miss MY QUIET CLIQUE, ALL MY PARTNERS(class,lab,comlab?) and those i always go to, talk to in class :)) so many to dos haha okay i am going out in ....1 hour time....sooo bye.....
7:44 PM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
blogger is back in where it started. i am slow:(( less than an hour ago, my cousin told me about hypocrites. i met them. they are the ones who took my childhood away/innocence away, leaving behind nightmares and shattered dreams and confidence. many things happened during this few months after i stopped blogging. things that are so good that kept me laughing till night things that are so bad that left me crying for four days. a few minutes ago my mum told me off. she said, some things are not possible, stop having false hope. standing between reality and fantasy, i never could find an answer, never did find myself. a few hours ago, i was watching tv. it quoted " in life, the hardest thing you could ever learn is understanding yourself". yes. stop pretending to understand myself. i am becoming someone i want to be, not who i am suppose to be. no point anyhow. i lost myself. ever since i have a mind of my own u know. based on my instincts, some people in this world, are not born to be hypocrites, not born to try to make use of people. sadly, some people are. which eventually shattered people dreams, hopes away. victims forced themself to fake, force themself to make use of people. soon, very very soon, they became that kind of person, so heartless. as long as you forgot about urself, u never remember others. as long as you are so heartless to the extend to change urself, force urself to become someone else, u are heartless enough to change others, force them to become someone else. many times, after i was hurt, i chased those hopes, dreams away but they came back eventually. i never learnt my lesson. stubbornness really kills. i could smile to a person who returns a grudge twice as hard i could smile to a person who was an accomplice to killing my innocence i could smile to a crowd who was indirectly mocking me. whether they realised it or not. NO i am not a hypocrite. that is just me. i let go easily. but i remember clearly. before i beg anyone not to take advantage of my weakness i need to think twice. there is no such person who will sympathise with me. when it comes to reality, i wun hesitate to just say hey, don't have ur hopes too high up, (i din say dn hope for anything) i care for my friends. in a different way. not wanting to hurt them. i am not negative. everyone have a different life.
8:01 AM
Saturday, June 27, 2009
omg omg omg omg omg im freaking out. next week school reopens i want that one week!! so i could rest more but the main point is i haven finish my homework i am thinking of excuse right now :(( thats bad i was reviewing and reflecting upon my life yesterday my days my friends many many times i feel like venting my anger on this blog. but i shall not. i started pointing middle finger but stopped saying fuck :)) a good thing i did my homework(notall) but forgot all about revising :)) :(( not very good but yar. anyway anyway anyway just for random to you. and you. only you must be feeling terrible now. you must be feeling guilty now. if not, why u pass such comment about me and my friends? and right infront of me i like ur straightforwardness, i like ur not fakeness. but you must be guilty right? i wont say you are wrong, cause that is ur opinion, not facts. as long as WE ARE NOT, we are not afraid or let ur comment upset us. so yar. i am feeling neutral now when i post this :)) and yes, i love being ur friend:)) last but not least, what you think about yourself reflect of what you are yourself, that is why i said you are guilty and blah. i had nightmare yesterday dam scarey. omg. that scene was in somewhere familiar. n to my horror, i realised it was in the primary school. i dreamt of my friends, classmates, aunties, cousins (not all lah) and this is not the first time i dreamt of my pri school omg omg omg i dreamt of dolls (similar to the dvd or cd cover of the show dead silence) haha probably cause i saw that cd, got a shocked, and thats how it entered into my dreams. but dis time, it is not tongue-cutting. its toymaking omg. can make a movie outta it. i dreamt that i was somehow organising or decorating the art room. i fell and blah then i ended up drawing funny rectangles on a piece of white paper. adding dots to each rect i drew. when i looked up, i realised it was dark. the school was quiet. the classrooms were dark and blah i walked outta that art room. looked around. realised it was late. i was wondering why my classmates or teachers didnt missed me. when i turned.... there was a big bed. i went to lie on it. i was lying on it till i thought of going home. so i climbed outta bed. open door. realised i couldnt see a thing. cause it was alr dark. it was so dark that i hoped to get outta that dream. and really, this thought came to my mind: okay close my eyes, and i am outta dis dream. but i was still in it. scarey uh. so i have no choice. i prayed or something like that and omg. a light came on from my hand or stuff... i walked. a few steps later, i came to a door. a very grand door. its like a dream i had once, my auntie house was so big that it was like bigger than a castle or stuff... so i tried to pushed open, hoping there would be someone. but something from the other side of door was pushing it. somehow i opened it. there was this lady + a man sitting on a chair then this lady was chasing me with some tools in her hand. i woke up. (still in dream) have a feeling i was gone for good i saw what i felt was important people n stuff... i followed them into the art room shocked... OMG. I SAW A TOY WITH MESSY BLOND HAIR.... (i think that was me, but at the same time, i was viewing everything) those impt people... suddenly went crazy. they started torturing that toy. e.g digging out eyeballs and stuff. that toy was screaming like crazy. omg. i was dam scared.... no one saw me, but i saw the whole thing... then i dn what went wrong. that toy fell apart... i followed the part of her leg. the rest of her body parts i dn where... then she hopped into a car... n from what i remember... i rmb seeing the characters of toy stories1 n that "leg" was eaten up by a dog.... OMG HAHA scarey... esp that toy part... second dream i had was me and some other friends whom i dno (irony), were crossing each one arms... and we were flying... with the helicopter dragging us. and we ended up in china i dreamt of my cousin... we went shopping... next thing i knew, i was inside some hall... i saw OMG... STARS from boys over flowers. haha. lame luh i know. thats all... i am feeling guilty of not spending my time wisely, esp during the hols lessons. awwwwwwwwwww its over :(( literature and geo is a killa :P
4:35 AM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
ytd was my sister birthday... but instead, I grown up a little... anyway. sensitivity is the dumbest thing it is not supposed to be a smart thing... but sadly, it is all that i have... it allows you to jump to conclusion, introducing unecessary pains and questions that were never meant to be answered. honestly, i am quite offended by some comments by some people. but, what comes around goes around, its karma. darlings, careful. make sure you don't get them, i won't laughed, nor would i comment like how u insult me before, but i am not so sure of others. Everyone is growing, by a second, by a minute each day, make sure you don't get it, i will never pity people like you. YOU DESERVE IT. SUCKERS. people who shut up and drive are smartass. they analysis people with their mouth closed. and i am wondering how long it would takes before i am one of them. :(( anyway.... all i have to say is... i caught your eyes. and i liked that :)) i hate myself. FOR NOT WAKING UP TO MY SENSES. as usual, it is blurred by all those lame stuff okay lets go to the fun part. sis birthday party yesterday. went auntie's house at like 4++pm. went up the house. stoned for a moment then down for deco HAHA. funneh. auntie and my grandma says my eyes very big. HAHA. thankyou :)) but it is not too good. its too obvious. damit. the balloon burst infront of me. got a shocked. crowd slowly streamed in went mrt fetch rachel and front gate fetch jx n ly ate stoned. drank red wine. :)) and i try one sip of liq, i tot it was fine, but when i ke kiang, took one gulp, OMG... DAM HOT. auntie said i was drunk cause my eyes was red and kinda stoned. cousin and sis also said i was drunk cause i kept laughing in the car. cause i saw something. somehow i am still laughing now, when i remind myself of that scene. but i sleep better after drinking wine. i asked my momma if i can drink wine everynite before i go to bed she scolded me cause she said i would be addicted. my dad say should be okay. haha talked to friends, cousins, played with cousins, stared at the billard table, then gamble for a lil while before going home. :)) anyway.... yesterday, i wasnt drunk.... i was clear-headed. cause if i said i was yesterday, then for the rest of a few years ago, I was drunk :)) anyway, i am quite tired... very tired... ... i give up. i will never fit in. sorry. i will never understand....
5:19 AM
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Liang Wen Yin :)) 梁文音 gna post different videos :)) dam nice her voice. super good singing techniques + voice.
